The first event that I did was the Memorial Day Heavy in New York in 2015 with Cadre Jeff, Matt and Logan. I had never heard of GORUCK before and had no idea what I was getting into. The longest event I had done thus far was a 12 hour heat for Spartan races. I was currently training for the “Death Race,” a 50 to 70 hour unknown distance event and I remembered seeing GORUCK online, so I decided to sign up as training for my Death Race. I failed the PT test, but was still able to continue and we went right into a forced ruck march at the Cadres pace. We had four or five people drop out at this point already. We ended up at this beach off of the Hudson River and it was smelly and gross. A few more people quit and he sent us into the water and had us do rocking chairs.
I thought I was going to quit 1,000 times throughout the 24 hours but my team wouldn’t let me. At the end of the event, a teammate asked me if I was still doing my “Death Race” and I said I don’t think I’m doing anything for a long, long time. I was not physically and emotionally ready for the event, especially for the sleep deprivation. I called my boyfriend at the time and told him I needed him to do 3 things for me or we were through – 1. draw me a bath, 2. get me a lot of food and 3. be very, very nice to me. I sat in the bathtub and sobbed for a few hours. I can’t describe the pure vomit of emotions that sleep depravation causes. I had severely underestimated the mental preparedness needed for a 24 hour endurance event.
A few days later after I had recovered, I was walking down Fifth Avenue and I can remember feeling myself stand taller, proud of what I’ve been through. That is what I love about events and why I keep coming back.
What’s your go-to rucksack?
I use the GORUCK Women’s Simple Pants for warm weather events. I love them because they dry so quickly (if only my underwear would dry as quickly) after a dunk in some dirty water. I also use the MACV-1’s for most events or if I know my rucking route will be super muddy.
How is rucking a part of your everyday life?
I started incorporating rucking into my GORUCK event training. I wanted to finish the 12 miler in under 2:30, so I set a pace goal for myself and met that goal. Now it’s something I do to spend time with friends and my dog. Nothing gets my pup more excited than seeing me put my ruck on.
But I still prefer ruck training more than rucking. I will say that fitting rucking into your day and hiding 30# in your EDC definitely keeps you from feeling lazy.
What’s on your event calendar for 2020?
What would you say to someone considering doing a GORUCK event for the first time?
For me, it’s been GORUCK events that have taught me the most. They really reminded me of my internal strength and opened me up to a larger community. If you haven’t tried one yet, bite the bullet – you won’t regret it.
– Eva Torres